Revolving~

So much time has passed, and in a way, i still seem to end up in the same position.
I do the same mistakes, react the same way.
I've walked a great distance to change, taking the same change of direction that took me around a big circle.

Tonight, i'm back where i started since the last time i felt like this.
Today, the best description of me can be found in a song.

"Letters" by Utada Hikaru.

Letters describes both me and my other self. The song, the music, the emotions. Not the lyrics. I think the concept of "words being cheap" plays a bigger role in me than i expected.

The days drive me to proceed with life, to move on, to be better. But in the end, the sun will set and the night sky and all under it would be humbled by the beauty of the moon. Humbled me to realise my position, where i stand.
Humbled to bring out emotions i hid behind the cover of sunlight. Emotions and thoughts that could easily pierce through my heart and mind.

But the night leaves me exposed to all. Without ilusional barriers to hide behind.

Hidden questions began to surface. Questions which tease my curiosity. Curiosity which would eventually drive me to find the answers.

Although i've walked a circle, i have grown since i was last back in this position.