I used to write a lot of stuff. Now i don't.
So i'm going to try something new today.
I'm going to write about anything until i decide to write about something else.
When the flow changes, i will start the new path with a ">". Starting with a "<" means it's related to one of the previous posts.
>Today i got an insight into
> I had problems sleeping last night. I rolled around and round and bury my face into the pillow because i couldn't get something out of my head that was repeating over and over again, getting louder as it goes.
1. paranoia
2. delusion.
needs to be addressed.
>i get restless. i have something on my mind. a vague sort of idea of what to write about. but when i try and focus harder on it. my breath gets short. i get restless. i want OUT and think about other things. more surfaces but no depth.
so why do i get restless when i focus on something?
damn i used to be good at it.
shit the door just slammed shut at 1.34am.
scaaaareeeee...
>dammit it shut again!
gonna check out what that was.
>i hear small animals....screeching in quite a distance.
shouldn't have made those jokes about being home alone in a new residential area.
>i get scared when i focus on something!
but since when and why?
why is it that i don't want to get inside my own head? that place was a comfort zone!
and just to piss off the self, my next one's gonna have a lot of effort in it.
1 comment:
Underlying stress?
You're worried that you won't be able to focus when you need to?
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